tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8866006270190171352024-02-20T18:46:21.531-08:00psychopathspraisinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09213834571650868224noreply@blogger.comBlogger96125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-886600627019017135.post-8875217153418503052013-09-08T03:54:00.003-07:002013-09-08T03:54:46.162-07:00122<span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">"My
name is Cassie, I am 23 years old. I graduated as a qualified nurse
this year and was given my first position as a home nurse.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">My
patient was an English gentleman in his early 80s who suffered from
Alzheimer’s. In the first meeting, the patient was given his record and
from it I could see that he was a convert to the religion of Islam,
therefore he was a Muslim.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">I
knew from this that I would need to take into account some modes of
treatment that may go against his faith, and therefore try to adapt my
care to meet his needs. I brought in some ‘halal’ meat to cook for him
and ensured that there was no pork or alcohol in the premises as I did
some research which showed that these were forbidden in Islam.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">My
patient was in a very advanced stage of his condition so a lot of my
colleagues could not understand why I was going through so much effort
for him. But I understood that a person who commits to a faith deserves
that commitment to be respected, even if they are not in a position to
understand.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">Anyway after a few weeks with my patient I began to notice some patterns of movement.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">At
first I thought it was some copied motions he’s seen someone doing, but
I saw him repeat the movement at particular time; morning, afternoon,
evening.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">The
movements were to raise his hands, bow and then put his head to the
ground. I could not understand it. He was also repeating sentences in
another language, I couldn’t figure out what language it was as his
speech was slurred but I know the same verses were repeated daily.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">Also there was something strange, he didnt allow me to feed him with my left hand (I am left-handed).</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">Somehow I knew this linked to his religion but didn’t know how.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">One
of my colleagues told me about paltalk as a place for debates and
discussions and as I did not know any Muslims except for my patient I
thought it would be good to speak to someone live and ask questions. I
went on the Islam section and entered the room ‘True Message’.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">Here
I asked questions regarding the repeated movements and was told that
these were the actions of prayer. I did not really believe it until
someone posted a link of the Islamic prayer on youtube.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">I was shocked.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">A
man who has lost all memory of his children, of his occupation, and
could barely eat and drink was able to remember not only actions of
prayer but verses that were in another language.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">This
was nothing short of incredible and I knew that this man was devout in
his faith, which made me want to learn more in order to care for him the
best I could.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">I came into the paltalk room as often as I could and was given a link to read the translation of the Quran and listen to it.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">The chapter of the ‘Bee’ gave me chills and I repeated it several times a day.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">I
saved a recording of the Quran on my iPod and gave it to my patient to
listen to, he was smiling and crying, and in reading the translation I
could see why.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">I
applied what I gained from paltalk to care for my patient but gradually
found myself coming to the room to find answers for myself.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">I
never really took the time to look at my life; I never knew my father,
my mother died when I was 3, me and my brother were raised by our
grandparents who died 4 years ago, so now its just the two of us.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">But despite all this loss, I always thought I was happy, content.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">It
was only after spending time with my patient that felt like I was
missing something. I was missing that sense of peace and tranquility my
patient, even through suffering felt.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">I wanted that sense of belonging and a part of something that he felt, even with no one around him.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">I
was given a list of mosques in my area by a lady on paltalk and went
down to visit one. I watched the prayer and could not hold back my
tears.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">I felt drawn to the mosque every day and the imam and his wife would give me books and tapes and welcome any questions I had.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">Every
question I asked at the mosque and on paltalk was answered with such
clarity and depth that could do nothing but accept them.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">I have never practiced a faith but always believed that there was a God; I just did not know how to worship Him.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">One
evening I came on paltalk and one of the speakers on the mic addressed
me. He asked me if I have any questions, I said no. He asked if I was
happy with the answers I was given, I said yes.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">He asked then what was stopping me accepting Islam, I could not answer.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">I went to the mosque to watch the dawn prayer. The imam asked me the same question, I could not answer.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">I
then went to tend to my patient, I was feeding him and as I looked in
his eyes I just realized, he was brought to me for a reason and the only
thing stopping me from accepting was fear…. not fear in the sense of
something bad, but fear of accepting something good, and thinking that I
was not worthy like this man.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">That afternoon I went to the mosque and asked the imam if I could say my declaration of faith, the Shahadah.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">لا إله إلا الله محمد رسول الله (lā ʾilāha ʾillà l-Lāh, Muḥammadun rasūlu l-Lāh)</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">There is no god except Allah, Muhammad is Allah’s messenger.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">He helped me through it and guided me through what I would need to do next.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">I cannot explain the feeling I felt when I said it.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">It was like someone woke me up from sleep and sees everything more clearly.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">The feeling was overwhelming joy, clarity and most of all…. peace.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">The first person I told was not my brother but my patient.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">I went to him, and before I even opened my mouth he cried and smiled at me.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">I broke down in front of him, I owed him so much.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">I came home logged on to paltalk and repeated the shahadah for the room.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">They all helped me so much and even though I had never seen a single one of them, they felt closer to me than my own brother.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">I
did eventually call my brother to tell him and although he wasn’t
happy, he supported me and said he would be there, I couldn’t ask for
any more.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">After
my first week as a Muslim my patient passed away in his sleep while I
was caring for him. Inna lillahi wa inna ilayhi rajioon.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">He died a peaceful death and I was the only person with him.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">He was like the father I never had and he was my doorway to Islam.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">From
the day of my Shahadah to this very day and for every day for as long
as I live, I will pray that Allah shows mercy on him and grant him every
good deed I perform in the tenfold.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">I loved him for the sake of Allah and I pray each night to become an atoms weight of the Muslim he was.</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">Islam
is a religion with an open door; it is there for those who want to
enter it…. Verily Allah is the Most Merciful, Most Kind. “</span><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; line-height: 15px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; text-align: -webkit-auto; vertical-align: baseline;">*
note * Our sister Cassie passed away October 2010 Inna lillahi wa inna
ilayhi rajioon, after she gave da’wa to her brother, who had accepted
Islam Alhamdulillah [not a hadith]</span></span><br />
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soo, i guess i've abandoned this blog for quite awhile. because nothing much to share pn. but malam ni rasa mcm ada free time sket laa and boring kot, then here me to jot something down here. hmm where shud i start eh?hahaha ok, i think we all will be tested by Allah swt but in different ways. yela kan, hows our life will be if there's no obstacle at all kan. tak challenging la kan. sbb Allah gives us ujian pn sebab to test our iman and ask us to keep praying for His help. and for me and family, we also been tested by Him. though we sometimes sighed bout all those stuffs, but we reminded each other to be strong. honestly, me sometimes felt very tired and get lost dgn ujian yg Allah bagi sbb im not that strong to face all that, and saya bkn yg sgt penyabar. tp thanks to Allah, He bless me with family that always keep me up and cherish me up. and He sent me afif, which is the one who always keep reminding me to istighfar whenever i felt devastated. afif selalu ckp that Allah will never give burden to His servants if we not able to handle it. which means apa yg my family get through ni sbb ktorg mampu. i know that but yela, we humans, kita selalu mengeluh dan cpt pnat bila kita rasa ok thats enough. cmtu la. but utk think positive, i selalu pk yg Allah syg kami, and this ujian makes us stronger and even better inshaAllah. ok thats my first point. the second is i tengah in mood of holiday skang, yela sem break katakn hihi. tp disebabkan my elective project and i attach dgn dr wan syazli yg gila protocol, smpai sekarang ktorg kena pegi hospital every monday, wed and thursday. kena follow clinic bagai, even cpc pn kena pegi kot. at first mmg ktorg bengang sket la kot, yela sian kot my friends yg stay jauh still tak dpt balik uma. tp mmg Allah bagi ada je yg baik and ada hikmah. because of this elective, we can go to A&E and tgk burn case and dpt learn byk sgt benda baru. and we assist doctor suture hihi. dah mcm surgeon ktorg ni. buat kt manusia betol kot hahha. so Alhamdulillah la, Allah bagi semua yg baik utk kita. just we will realize that later. so always be grateful of what u have now. till then, salam.praisinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09213834571650868224noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-886600627019017135.post-43706447492114570312013-03-28T08:35:00.000-07:002013-03-28T08:35:01.039-07:00120salam sahabat2 seislam ku, just wanna share something. utk kita semua, jgn berputus asa utk bertaubat, sesungguhnya Allah buka pintu taubat di waktu siang dan malam. jgn rasa kita terlalu teruk sehingga tidak mampu utk bertaubat. Allah berfirman: "jika dosa kita sampai ke langit, tapi sekiranya kita beristighfar, Allah pasti akan ampun kan dosa kita." Allah itu Maha Penyayang, percayalah, jgn rasa jauh dgn Allah. Allah syg dan sentiasa bersangka baik dgn kita. maka bersangka baik lah dgn Allah. anak Abu Jahal, Ikrimah masuk islam, dan masuk syurga dan merupakan org yg paling dekat dgn Nabi saw. sedangkan org yg tentang Nabi saw pun diterima Allah, mana mungkin Allah tolak taubat kita. Iblis pun mintak dipanjangkan hidup sehingga akhir akhirat, Allah tunaikan. sedangkan kita yg solat, mana mungkin Allah tolak doa kita. betapa ajaibnya doa kita. sentiasa bersungguh2 dgn doa kita, dan ikhlas dgn doa kita, yakin lah Allah pasti makbul kan kita. this is for reminding to me and kita saudara2 islam. yg pasti, kita mesti ada niat and berubah ke arah yg baik, selagi Allah masih beri nikmat utk bernafas :)praisinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09213834571650868224noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-886600627019017135.post-72134489138449684432013-03-11T00:14:00.001-07:002013-03-11T00:14:26.092-07:00119assalamualaikum peeps!<br />
its been awhile, been busy with medic stuff. and insyaallah esok i got long case to sit for. pray for my friends and i. medicine posting for me, sgt interesting yet tougher ughh. tp takpe la, 2 months i've went thru this interesting posting. and berdoa semoga dgn Ihsan Allah swt, Dia permudahkan kami esok. really really hope. however He has own reason for everything that might happen tomorrow. semoga redha :))<br />
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a new year of 2013 has begun, which it makes me a year older and makes me to a step closer kepada kematian. Subhanallah. semoga diberi nikmat utk hidup lagi kerana masih belum cukup bekalan utk dibawa bejumpa penciptaNya. pray for the dark pasts will be forgiven. and hopefully we've achieved something in last year, which made us to be a better person insyaallah. and sentiasa berdoa agar kita berada dibawah keberkatanNya, kerana tanpaNya, kita takkan pernah ada peluang utk berada di dunia yg fana ini. insyaallah have a blessed 2013 everyone :)praisinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09213834571650868224noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-886600627019017135.post-19660885818069976722012-12-06T05:52:00.002-08:002012-12-06T05:52:58.561-08:00117<br />
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<b>Apakah kamu mengira bahawa kamu akan masuk syurga, padahal belum lagi
datang kepadamu (ujian) sebagaimana halnya dengan orang-orang yang
terdahulu sebelum kamu? Mereka ditimpa dengan malapetaka dan
kesengsaraan, serta digoncangkan (dengan bermacam-macam ujian) sehingga
berkatalah Rasul dan orang-orang yang beriman bersamanya: "Bilakah
datang pertolongan Allah?" Ingatlah sesungguhnya pertolongan Allah itu
amat dekat. (Al-Baqarah, 2:214)</b><br />
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Mereka sgt beruntung kerana syurga pasti utk mereka, Insyaallah. walaupun Allah menguji mereka, tapi mereka tahu matlamat mereka adalah akhirat, bukan la dunia semata. Allah uji mereka kerana mereka adalah orang orang yg bertaqwa, dengan ujian begitu lagi mendekatkan mereka kepada Allah. mereka tidak takut kepada manusia, mahupun senjata. kerana mereka tahu, Israel itu dilaknat Allah, dan akan dihukum di akhirat kelak. walaupun hari esok tidak tentu ada bagi mereka, tapi mereka tahu suatu hari nanti mereka pasti menghadap dan bertemu dgn PenciptaNya. mereka berani menghadapi hari yg mendatang, kerana jihad itu adalah tujuan mereka. mereka pergi dengan senyuman, menangis dengan redha, dan mereka yakin Allah sentiasa ada dengan mereka. setitis darah yg keluar adalah saksi mereka di padang Mashar nati, dan <b> </b>Allah tidak sama sekali akan memungkiri janjiNya. tetapi, dimanakah kita akan diletakkan di padang Mashar nati? adakah bersama mereka yg berjihad di jalan Allah? atau sebaliknya. apakah yg kita mahu bawak berjumpa dgn Allah di hari kelak nanti? mari lah kita renung-renung kan bersama. masih belum terlambat. sedangkan Nabi mengajak sahabat menanam benih sekiranya esk adalah hari kiamat. Nabi tak pernah ajar kita utk berputus asa. Allah sedang menguji kita dengan dunia. praisinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09213834571650868224noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-886600627019017135.post-89659082811601394542012-10-22T08:10:00.000-07:002012-10-22T08:10:02.809-07:00116towards some extent, dah rasa give up. its not because susah ke apa, but YES medic is tough. but kekuatan dalaman is not strong enough to make me sustain to get thru all this. bila pk balik, selalu rasa am i gonna be in this field in future? Ya Allah, gimme a strength, if aku tak kuat di luar, just beri lah kekuatan hati so that aku tabah. just sometimes penat sgt bila pk kena do that, do this. Ya Allah.....praisinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09213834571650868224noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-886600627019017135.post-24260876106803870202012-10-02T08:21:00.001-07:002012-10-02T08:21:29.331-07:0015am missing ibu and ayah so much. they are now kt Mecca, doing hajj. just feel kosong and sunyi sgt when they're not around. every day i'll text ibu saying i missed them so much, and hopefully they're doing good there and strong enough to do ibadah. doa to Allah for giving them haji mabrur. and now, i missed the times when i was there. doa kan utk ateh ibu :'(praisinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09213834571650868224noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-886600627019017135.post-64897632063797729172012-08-10T10:35:00.001-07:002012-08-10T10:35:15.094-07:00114sahabats, there are too many things that we shud be thankful for. for having islam, iman, good family and friends who always give hands to support and help us. Ya Allah, thank you for all these nikmat that You lent to us up to this while. selama ini byk yang aku tidak rasa cukup and syukur, revealed that im not a good servant. am truly sorry.praisinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09213834571650868224noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-886600627019017135.post-60191871496081078922012-08-01T10:49:00.001-07:002012-08-01T11:11:03.216-07:00113the most exciting and awaiting part, we will be going back to sg buloh !!! finally, been 2 weeks in hospital teluk intan and is officially ended by tomorrow. tp actually best gk laa kt Teluk Intan where we've got chances to go to OT byk kali. if kat sg buloh macam susah laa, nak compete bagai dgn budak2 from MAHSA students. just yg tak best sebab sunyi kt sini since only 12 of us kt sini. and patients agak limited, findings pn tak byk and uncommon one. and bila malam ward round, mostly they refused to be examined and dorg tdo mmg awal sgt. but the doctors sgt la friendly, just sisters agak poyo sket. sampai sekali tu dorg ckp "dak2 ni keluar masuk labor room cam rumah dorg pulak eh". perli la kan tuu. tp takpe, ktorg senyum kambing so that dia bertambah bengang haha. tp we realized one thing la, bila duduk jauh2 12 org ni, ktorg getting closer la. boleh lepak2 bagai which that was fun gila, and relieve stress and penat ktorg. and we work as a team. on call pn ramai2 sampai lebam. if ada yg didnt manage to observe labor, then ktorg akan tggu till dorg dapat.<br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhsD1uYtESyxU1RzxuZzPhQeroGdPfMCMcTcMLoDNw6H0wDhaXOk-3F9srsZLo351Z4D-lFgdNmfGafZA2F7_Y03wLY8hn0kXxA-mKz1BhfHnCoSPu7Esd_bXaa9B6Z0lZUgIldGn14oDA/s1600/kami.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img 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center;">berbuka beramai ramai :)</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">ok. gotta sleep to recharge energy for class and driving back to KL tomorrow. goodnait.</div>praisinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09213834571650868224noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-886600627019017135.post-78015491714481552982012-07-26T05:47:00.002-07:002012-07-26T05:47:52.915-07:00112sepuluh malam pertama semakin hampir ke penghujungnya. kalau boleh rasa biar lah masa berhenti, dan biarlah setiap bulan adalah bulan Ramadhan. oleh itu sahabat2 sekalin, jom marilah saya mengajak diri saya dan sahabat2, rebut lah peluang utk medapat rahmat Allah di sepuluh malam pertama ini. jgn la lepaskan peluang dimana Allah swt betol2 beri secara percuma, semua isi pintu neraka ditutup, dan semua pintu syurga dibuka. mari lah kita beribadah kerana Allah, dan tambahkan la amalan2 sunat, dan ubah diri kita ke arah yg lebih baik. semoga setiap titik2 niat kita utk melakukan kebaikan dikira sebagai ibadat kepada Allah swt. insyaallah.praisinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09213834571650868224noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-886600627019017135.post-1290467098412162352012-07-04T09:22:00.002-07:002012-07-04T09:22:50.096-07:00111Ya Allah, whatever happens to me in the future, i leave everything on You because i know, no matter how hard i force maself to struggle, but You are the one that give these chances. i just only can rely on You. please Allah, ease my paths to be Your good and strong khalifah.praisinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09213834571650868224noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-886600627019017135.post-83667954383427227042012-05-18T08:40:00.000-07:002012-05-18T08:40:09.853-07:00110bismillahirrahmanirrahim. thanks to Allah for giving such a wonderful life though i've went through load of obstacles during these 2years. this result i've got is all coming from You. bukan daripada usahaku. and i believed that everything happens might be reasons behind it, and i know You have a good planning for my future. thank you so much Ya Allah. i've no confident at all but You are the one who always listen to my praying. thanks again Ya Allahpraisinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09213834571650868224noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-886600627019017135.post-40308750013202835002012-04-30T04:41:00.002-07:002012-04-30T04:41:09.923-07:00109terasa ingin mengeluh. tapi biar lah disimpan saja dan biar lah hanya mengadu kepadaNya. mungkin akan pulih selepas tu. insyaallah. sungguh, aku yakin dengan takdirMu Maha Pencipta.praisinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09213834571650868224noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-886600627019017135.post-18795889762683065612012-03-28T18:46:00.000-07:002012-03-28T18:46:09.026-07:00108masa semakin dekat, hari semakin hampir, diri belum bersedia, jantung berdenyut kencang. hanya meminta kepadaNya, mudahkan lah segalanya.praisinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09213834571650868224noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-886600627019017135.post-11233946600910830442012-03-07T08:54:00.000-08:002012-03-07T08:54:44.552-08:00107manusia. suka menghukum. apa yg buruk dimaki hamun, tapi bila buat baek pulak ada la yang tak kena. pelik kan? tak pelik pn bila mereka rasa diri mereka yg sempurna. bila mereka rasa apa yg mereka buat dah terlalu sempurna di mata mereka. bila mereka rasa hati mereka dah terlalu suci, riak kah? kenapa perlu risau bila ujian itu datang? bukan manusia yg bantu, tp Yang Maha Esa sentiasa membantu kerana Dia yg menguji kita. kenapa nak risau kalau kita terpaksa bersusah sedikit? itu bemakna kita tak yakin Allah pasti akan bantu kita. so stop judge orang dari luaran. bila menutup satu badan, org mengata perangai manusia itu tak baek la. belagak la. sombong la. tp bila separuh telanjang, menghina pulak. anda? terlalu sempurna? sehingga ingin mengata org dari belakang. kadang2 kita rasa hati kita dah terlalu suci, tp kita tak sedar bila mengata manusia laen, bintik bintik hitam mula melekat dihati kita. ok thats a lesson for today. bye!praisinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09213834571650868224noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-886600627019017135.post-69506499929407350632012-02-23T04:54:00.003-08:002012-02-23T04:54:45.514-08:00106<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<br />praisinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09213834571650868224noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-886600627019017135.post-66412478296910025322012-02-16T21:19:00.000-08:002012-02-17T07:43:43.579-08:00105assalamualaikum. thanks to Allah for giving me a chance to breath this fresh air today. meaning to say, im still alive for today and i'll be going back home todayy! yeayy, hello u punya rumah kt kl je kot. just a step forward and you'l be there haha. doesnt matter pn actually. but u know, being here sangat boring kot. i dont know why, maybe boyfriend takde kot haha. menggelabah gila jira oi. guys, u know kan, time goes very very fast. on this july i'll be transferring to sg buloh for my clinical year purposes. and yet, for the next 3 years insyaallah, if im able to manage my study and exam-things dgn baek, i'l complete my mbbs successfully. nampak mcm lama kan, but actlly that time is getting near. and tak sabar sgt nak succeed dgn membe2 semua. and by the time i finish my degree, i already fulfill my parents punya impian. alhamdulillah. such a pleased felling. ok, going to get maself ready for exam petang ni. pray for me and colleagues! everyone, please enjoy your day today and for gentlemen, jangan lupa solat jumaat! friday is rock bebeh. hihi bye-bye.praisinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09213834571650868224noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-886600627019017135.post-31826634753869424022012-02-08T04:19:00.000-08:002012-02-08T04:19:04.460-08:00104you are strong jira. please, wake up!praisinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09213834571650868224noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-886600627019017135.post-88677520273611922822012-01-26T23:51:00.000-08:002012-01-26T23:51:38.564-08:00103bosan gila bila terpaksa masuk belajar balik. my 2weeks holiday dah habis. perasaan nak pergi lectures from 8-5 sangat tak suka, melaenkan bila fikir dapat lepak minum nescafe time break. tu je semangat untuk paksa diri ke lecture. tapi nak buat macam mana, kena jugak laa korban kan masa and hidup bila dah jadi camni. hm mood arini sangat terok. kbye.praisinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09213834571650868224noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-886600627019017135.post-71087827135370020592012-01-20T02:13:00.000-08:002012-01-20T02:13:49.546-08:00102kelantan is not boring sangat laa, tp the food tu yang tak boleh masuk sangat. sambal bukan maen laa manis sangat. awat nta. naseb baek ah ada mamak. but nescafe tarik pn boeh tahan manis mamak buat. aiyak how to survive kalau stay kat kelantan nati. and one more thing tak tau laa nak pegi mana kalau kt kelantan. takkan nak pegi mall kot. kt kl pn da besepah sepah mall, naek bosan daa pergi. soo port yg baek pn pegi borong batik jela kt pasar khadijah tu. tula port kitorg kalau pergi kelantan, takpe laa, yang penting kat kelantan ada awak :)praisinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09213834571650868224noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-886600627019017135.post-58838570140949348492012-01-11T02:08:00.000-08:002012-01-11T02:08:48.345-08:00101alhamdulillah, finally the exam is over. happy holiday ppl !praisinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09213834571650868224noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-886600627019017135.post-66131418911766011632012-01-01T06:19:00.000-08:002012-01-01T06:19:38.837-08:00100dalam pale hotak saya is now, plan macam2 untuk cuti ni. vacation dan macam2 laa. cepaat laa final. tak boleh sabar daa. asal belajar je dah berangan ada kt macam2 tempat hihi. ok daa, back to work. fighting !!<br />
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<br />praisinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09213834571650868224noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-886600627019017135.post-61181504162852052472011-12-27T04:22:00.000-08:002011-12-27T04:22:09.264-08:0099Ya Allah, permudahkan la segalanya. aku mohon segalanya kepadaMu. lancarkan lah kehidupan ku dan pemudahkan segala-galanya. aminn.praisinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09213834571650868224noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-886600627019017135.post-91749050568972425592011-12-15T04:42:00.000-08:002011-12-15T07:59:40.642-08:0098erkk arghh. tak tension pn tp just nak remind maself yg final exam is bout 3weeks left. tak suka gila la rasa environment exam ni. kena menelaah je keje nya. oh so stressed kot camtu. then afer exam kena prepare pulak utk professional exam. aduyai, bila pk balik, takde masa dah pon nak enjoy lebih lebih. sikit2 tu boleh la, tp lebih lebih tu cm tak boleh je. tak suka laa. anyway, u know what, rezeki Allah tu luas kan. so i just put ma trust on Him. kita usaha, tp yg bagi rezeki tu semua Allah. dont be too confident dengan your intelligence. sebab bukan tu yg determine u punya life. hmm then nextsem kitorg ada elective project. even tak jadi pergi overseas pn sebab uitm takde bajet sem ni, buat kat malaysia pn dah ok sangat. tp spe taknak pegi kan bila dah dpt fully sponsored by uitm haha. ok la, got to go. some works need to be done. bye guys!praisinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09213834571650868224noreply@blogger.com0