am missing ibu and ayah so much. they are now kt Mecca, doing hajj. just feel kosong and sunyi sgt when they're not around. every day i'll text ibu saying i missed them so much, and hopefully they're doing good there and strong enough to do ibadah. doa to Allah for giving them haji mabrur. and now, i missed the times when i was there. doa kan utk ateh ibu :'(
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sahabats, there are too many things that we shud be thankful for. for having islam, iman, good family and friends who always give hands to support and help us. Ya Allah, thank you for all these nikmat that You lent to us up to this while. selama ini byk yang aku tidak rasa cukup and syukur, revealed that im not a good servant. am truly sorry.
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the most exciting and awaiting part, we will be going back to sg buloh !!! finally, been 2 weeks in hospital teluk intan and is officially ended by tomorrow. tp actually best gk laa kt Teluk Intan where we've got chances to go to OT byk kali. if kat sg buloh macam susah laa, nak compete bagai dgn budak2 from MAHSA students. just yg tak best sebab sunyi kt sini since only 12 of us kt sini. and patients agak limited, findings pn tak byk and uncommon one. and bila malam ward round, mostly they refused to be examined and dorg tdo mmg awal sgt. but the doctors sgt la friendly, just sisters agak poyo sket. sampai sekali tu dorg ckp "dak2 ni keluar masuk labor room cam rumah dorg pulak eh". perli la kan tuu. tp takpe, ktorg senyum kambing so that dia bertambah bengang haha. tp we realized one thing la, bila duduk jauh2 12 org ni, ktorg getting closer la. boleh lepak2 bagai which that was fun gila, and relieve stress and penat ktorg. and we work as a team. on call pn ramai2 sampai lebam. if ada yg didnt manage to observe labor, then ktorg akan tggu till dorg dapat.
we went for sahur after our on-call
berbuka beramai ramai :)
ok. gotta sleep to recharge energy for class and driving back to KL tomorrow. goodnait.
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sepuluh malam pertama semakin hampir ke penghujungnya. kalau boleh rasa biar lah masa berhenti, dan biarlah setiap bulan adalah bulan Ramadhan. oleh itu sahabat2 sekalin, jom marilah saya mengajak diri saya dan sahabat2, rebut lah peluang utk medapat rahmat Allah di sepuluh malam pertama ini. jgn la lepaskan peluang dimana Allah swt betol2 beri secara percuma, semua isi pintu neraka ditutup, dan semua pintu syurga dibuka. mari lah kita beribadah kerana Allah, dan tambahkan la amalan2 sunat, dan ubah diri kita ke arah yg lebih baik. semoga setiap titik2 niat kita utk melakukan kebaikan dikira sebagai ibadat kepada Allah swt. insyaallah.
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Ya Allah, whatever happens to me in the future, i leave everything on You because i know, no matter how hard i force maself to struggle, but You are the one that give these chances. i just only can rely on You. please Allah, ease my paths to be Your good and strong khalifah.
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bismillahirrahmanirrahim. thanks to Allah for giving such a wonderful life though i've went through load of obstacles during these 2years. this result i've got is all coming from You. bukan daripada usahaku. and i believed that everything happens might be reasons behind it, and i know You have a good planning for my future. thank you so much Ya Allah. i've no confident at all but You are the one who always listen to my praying. thanks again Ya Allah
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terasa ingin mengeluh. tapi biar lah disimpan saja dan biar lah hanya mengadu kepadaNya. mungkin akan pulih selepas tu. insyaallah. sungguh, aku yakin dengan takdirMu Maha Pencipta.
