bila members semua cakap clinical year best and we can easily catch up almost everything during clinical year, i think betol jugak. tapi bila fikir balik and bila tengok balik kemampuan diri sendri, rasa sangat tak yakin nak get through sume tu. even sampai sekarang, my heart is stil not in this place. semua negative thinking dah deposited kat my brain. lantak lah orang nak cakap apa, stil rasa tak boleh. plus bila tgk mmbe2 rapat sume nak grad bagai, ada yg dah kje and pakai BMW siap, oh no. mmg rasa Ya Allah, kenapa aku kena ikot kehendak parents and tekedek2 utk raih kebahagiaan. huu. sometimes when pray to Allah utk beri segala kekuatan for me to stand with all difficulties along this way, just feel like to drop bout 1L of tears of mine. but one thing i've got is nikmat besabar and kekuatan yang Allah bagi. if tak berada kat sini, maybe i enjoy puas2 my life dengan friends. tapi bila ada kat sini, even tak dapat enjoy sepuas2 nya, but alhamdulillah i stil can manage my social time with my friends. thanks Allah. up til now, jangan lah Engkau tarik segala nikmat ini sekelip mata dan jangan Kau hanyutkan aku dengan nikmatMu ini sebegitu sahaja. biar lah aku jatuh hari ini, sebagai pengajaran buatku untuk masa akan datang. if i succeed nati, its not bcoz of my struggling, but everything comes from Your ihsan. i pray to Allah, for each seconds, help me and dont put me aside. please.
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