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the last saturday, i went to the dentist. for the exchanged of ma braces color. then our conversation started :

the doctor: siti, amacam medic? susah tak?
me: hm entah lah doc. the thing is byk sangat2. so penat gila lah like everyday kena baca.
the doctor: i know, i used to be like u. eh your sis ruhaya sambung master eh?
me: yep, isnin ni start dah class.
the doctor: wow, rajin dia belajar.
me: eh, doc blaja sampai degree ke? tak amek master?
the doctor: yes, saya tak larat dah lah nak blaja. even dapat tawaran further to specialist, tapi saya taknak. if nak blaja pn, i'd like to have islamic stdy. kitab quran tu pun tak habis lagi baca terjemahan. padahal tu kitab kita smpai akhir zaman kan. if baca saja without knowing the meaning, utk apa kan?

then i tersenyap seketika. sgt mendalam ayat doc ni. oh my, i wish i cud be just like you doc. selama ni, just baca quran without knowing the terjemahan. sgt teruk, sedangkan the kitab is ours for the muslims, sebagai pegangan. but im knowing but nothing. how pity i am. actly, this is what i want to be, just like you. as a wanna-be-doctor in future insyaallah, bukan sahaja ilmu duniawi penuh di dada, but the ilmu akhirat pun ada. then, i will proud to be myself afterwards.

for me to think. and you as my inspire